Unpopular things to say on your own blog: "I feel stuck." I don't know if "stuck" is the right word to use, but we're using it for the sake of the conversation. Being open and honest about that is really weird and it makes me feel really exposed in a way. No one wants to feel like they're a stranger in their own space ya know? I know it's probably just a funk, and I'll ride out the wave, but I don't think this sort of thing gets discussed a lot. Surely I'm not the only one who feels that way right? I think we all go through these lulls with our creative endeavors and sometimes it's hard to feel fulfilled 100% of the time. I don't have any plans to leave the blog or anything, but it does make me feel more pressure to make some changes. I've been talking (very vaguely) about changes for months and months now, but I just haven't managed to work out the details yet. If we're being totally honest here: I haven't found a way to really balance my content. I love sharing outfits, even if they're not unique or inspiring (I like what I like haha). I love sharing DIYs and tutorials, but it seems only the "(too) simple" things make waves (Hey! I like the easy route, too!). I love sharing things about Toby and being a mom, but I don't want to teeter too far into mommy-blog territory (and I never want to exploit him for pageviews). I think personal blogs are sort of weird territory. How much is enough, and how much is too much? I get bored thinking of my own blog sometimes and that's kind of the worst thing ever haha! (And I can't believe I'm admitting that, but ya know...)
I honestly think a lot of this has come about in my sort of semi-quarter-life crisis that's going on. Then again I have one of those like every few months! haha It's not just the blog that has me sort of singing the blues. Mike and I have really been trying to hammer out what it is we see ourselves doing in the long run, and how we plan on achieving that. I know I shouldn't harp on myself so hard for not being "there" yet (wherever the heck "there" is!) but sometimes I really get into that mood where I want to get busy living. One day I'll feel so adult and think I have it all together, then the next day I'm convinced I'm a 12 year old in a 25 year old's body. I think that's an honest struggle for a lot of self employed people. Trying to have faith in your vision and really investing it in to see you through the times is tough. Oftentimes it's so much easier to just look at what everyone else is doing and say "Huh, why can't that work for me?" I've started writing multiple blog posts on this sort of "mindset" and hopefully one day soon I'll finish them. I think it's a great conversation to have and I'm convinced that so many people out there can relate. I know what I need to do to really put the pep back in my step, but it's like I keep hitting that virtual brick wall. The only way to work through it is to just slowly chip away at it. I think a nice little day drive or adventure is in store for me to clear my head. I'm basically waxing poetic about a blog... what is my life?!
This outfit looks familiar huh? (Not unlike all of my other dress + cardigan combos haha They're basically indistinguishable from one another.) Here I am rocking the same dress from here and here, but with some different colors thrown in. Maybe it's a safety thing, but I feel so comfortable in these outfits. This JCP dress (along with the purple one) are seriously the best things to pair with my bright colored cardigans. I instantly feel put together and classy enough to go in almost anywhere, but I'm also so confident and comfortable (and I still feel modest/covered up).
Today I'm planning on getting my hands dirty by building some photo props with Mike. I've spent the past few days trying to catch up with life after being out of pocket all last week, and I think some sunshine is just what I need. If you've got the answers for all of my life questions, I'm all ears! ;)
Worthington cardigan via JCPenney
Coral necklace c/o LuLu*s
Maja bag via Little Black Bag
Target flats
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